A highly questionable penalty awarded in the 83rd min by the referee and converted by Singapore in the 95th minute capped a 2-1 win for the Lions and brought out the worst in sportsmanship from the men from the Land of Smiles, Thailand.
In the end, the scrappy nature of the match did not matter, the poor technical skills and quality of play did not matter, but the manner in which the Thais treated the Malaysian referee with disrespect regarding his award of the penalty makes me feel ashamed.
For a moment, the Thais threatened to walked off the game which would have surely sparked serious FIFA sanctions and the game will be awarded 3-0 to Singapore by default. There may not even be a need for the second leg if disciplinary actions are taken against the Thais.
I am sure all these thoughts must have ran thru the mind of the Thai team manager who appeared the most prepared to carry on with the game when the situation on the field was farcical. Shame, shame.
All the fans want is a good game of football played with passion, commitment and reasonable entertainment. As the final of the Asean Football Championships, the two teams on display are supposed to be the finest two nations and should focus only on performing their best on the field to repay the supporters. Sadly, Thailand seemed uninterested.
In football, as in life, not all is fair. Try telling me the Hand of God from Maradona is fair, or the failure to mention Zidane's headbutt in the World Cup 2006 final referee report is fair. It's just not fair. Everyone makes mistakes, and in a way that is what makes football more exciting, creates talking points because there are always human errors. Try to translate it to Thai and tell the lads out there?
Now, nothing less than a triumph for Singapore over this two-legged final is enough to preventing the coronation of an undeserved champion that lacks the appreciation for the beautiful game.
Singapore may be technically less gifted, plays uglier long balls, but in them I see the fire, the passion, and the DISCIPLINE.
*ROaR*
Wednesday, January 31, 2007
Sunday, January 28, 2007
Not the usual class gathering
Attended Aaron's wake this evening held at the void deck of his flat in Jurong West.
***
The circumstances around his passing away are still a mystery, but I was glad to hear that he did not suffer from physical injuries and his valuables were intact when they found him. It is already a great relief as I feared something worse. At the wake, his cousin explained the results of their own investigations in Manchester and it was similarly inconclusive. According to Duanli, Aaron's mother and his brothers are not going to dwell any longer too.
I am glad that I managed to tell all present about the great hospitality Aaron offered me and helped illustrated his selflessness and helpfulness. I will remember Aaron fondly for his assistance and my greatest gratitude.
My deepest condolences to Aaron's family. Take lotsa care.
***
The wake was an unusual setting for the gathering of 2B. It is exactly ten years since we stepped in Chinese High as innocent 12 yr olds. The faces are familiar, but they all seem so distant in my memory. Everyone's grown up, some changed but most still are the same.
I was moody most of the time, and only managed to catch up with Shihao more. For the rest, I don't have the energy to initiate conversations and lied low. The slide show of Aaron's photos was too much for me and I couldn't help letting the tears roll down.
As a tribute to Aaron Kok, Duanli will be organizing a soccer match for our class and I look forward to seeing all of them again in a different setting.
Well, at least old friends met up and itz heartening to see everyone come together in a time like this. It is the last bit we can do to send Aaron off.
***
The circumstances around his passing away are still a mystery, but I was glad to hear that he did not suffer from physical injuries and his valuables were intact when they found him. It is already a great relief as I feared something worse. At the wake, his cousin explained the results of their own investigations in Manchester and it was similarly inconclusive. According to Duanli, Aaron's mother and his brothers are not going to dwell any longer too.
I am glad that I managed to tell all present about the great hospitality Aaron offered me and helped illustrated his selflessness and helpfulness. I will remember Aaron fondly for his assistance and my greatest gratitude.
My deepest condolences to Aaron's family. Take lotsa care.
***
The wake was an unusual setting for the gathering of 2B. It is exactly ten years since we stepped in Chinese High as innocent 12 yr olds. The faces are familiar, but they all seem so distant in my memory. Everyone's grown up, some changed but most still are the same.
I was moody most of the time, and only managed to catch up with Shihao more. For the rest, I don't have the energy to initiate conversations and lied low. The slide show of Aaron's photos was too much for me and I couldn't help letting the tears roll down.
As a tribute to Aaron Kok, Duanli will be organizing a soccer match for our class and I look forward to seeing all of them again in a different setting.
Well, at least old friends met up and itz heartening to see everyone come together in a time like this. It is the last bit we can do to send Aaron off.
Saturday, January 27, 2007
无可救药
暗恋是一种礼貌
暗地里盖一座城堡
然后再当你的警卫跑腿和小猫
随时你要我重关电脑
随时你要我随传随到
买面包鸡排和水饺
你每次对着我笑
你的笑里面有毒药
我看着你出了神还丢掉了解药
可能你从来没感觉到
最好你永远感觉不到
爱上你越来越无可救药
一天一天越来越无可救药
一生一次爱你到无可救药
我才慢慢体会到
幸福是被爱的人需要
一天一天越来越无可救药
一生一次爱你到无可救药
我才狠狠决定要
就爱吧就唱吧就不逃
Overdoing it
When you do more than you are supposed to, the results may not always be positive.
Maybe it didn't matter at all, because all along that idea was already mooted. But I actually gave her a push and did myself a disservice. Yet, I am in no position to influence her decision and the eventual outcome. Felt stupid about it, why am I so foolish?
Things are getting on very well indeed. So well that I feel jealous. Haha over some peanuts but nevertheless I haven't felt that kinda weird feeling for very long. I think she opened my heart, and I am back to a goofy old self who spares nothing to see her smile. Somehow, I think I got the key to hers as well.
But I am stuttering because I dunno if I want to open her heart, not sure if I can give her happiness and am afraid of getting hurt. I don't wanna make a mistake. I am taking a long time to test water, keep asking myself questions and to be very clear about what I am looking for.
But the prospects of going on a grad trip together seems bleak now, all thanks to my over-enthusiasm in part. I am torn. On one hand I would love to wish her good luck and pursue her AIESEC internship, but on the other I wish she would stay. But I know I shouldn't be selfish. I would want that opportunity if we swopped positions.
*****
Anyway I dropped some hints yst and the signs were encouraging. Haha. I hope it will blossom in the end, really.
Maybe it didn't matter at all, because all along that idea was already mooted. But I actually gave her a push and did myself a disservice. Yet, I am in no position to influence her decision and the eventual outcome. Felt stupid about it, why am I so foolish?
Things are getting on very well indeed. So well that I feel jealous. Haha over some peanuts but nevertheless I haven't felt that kinda weird feeling for very long. I think she opened my heart, and I am back to a goofy old self who spares nothing to see her smile. Somehow, I think I got the key to hers as well.
But I am stuttering because I dunno if I want to open her heart, not sure if I can give her happiness and am afraid of getting hurt. I don't wanna make a mistake. I am taking a long time to test water, keep asking myself questions and to be very clear about what I am looking for.
But the prospects of going on a grad trip together seems bleak now, all thanks to my over-enthusiasm in part. I am torn. On one hand I would love to wish her good luck and pursue her AIESEC internship, but on the other I wish she would stay. But I know I shouldn't be selfish. I would want that opportunity if we swopped positions.
*****
Anyway I dropped some hints yst and the signs were encouraging. Haha. I hope it will blossom in the end, really.
Saturday, January 20, 2007
The Dollars and Sense of Citizenship
There is a same-titled article on today's Straits Times, but I haven't read it. The diagram shows the dollar value benefits of being a Singaporean family - $190 628, of which $132 000 are results of property appreciation.
I feel ashamed to even start reading it. Excuse me, is that what the Singaporean citizenship is all about?
Believe it or not, my idea of citizenship stems from a lousy American movie called Starship Troopers. One can only become a citizen by signing up to protect Earth from alien bugs. Those who don't are known as civilians.
In Singapore, it is almost the same scenario. All males serve 2 years of national service either with the armed forces, the police, or the civil defence force. I think national service is really the fabric that binds all Singaporeans together, when we pledged to defend this 660 sq km with our lives. Two years of sweat and blood, and sometimes the loss of lives due to accidents, mean something.
It is really not about a question of monetary benefits of being a citizen. I think the ST really got it all wrong.
When this famous ex-Singaporean pianist (whatever his name) was fined a few thousands dollars for evading NS, there was outcry over the peanuts fine, but deeper down, I believe Singaporeans are protesting because this chap has failed to fulfill his duties as a citizen then. He has to cheek to come back to Singapore to visit his old parents he deserted all this time, when thousands others before and after him trained hard everyday he was pursuing his dreams in UK.
"Do I not have a dream to pursue, but have to put it on hold first to protect his parents?"
I know I am not very balanced writing this entry, not the way GP has taught me. But NS is important for the sovereignty of Singapore. It is a matter of survival and I am not about to take a buffered approach.
Not when leaders of our neighbours use Singapore as a dartboard when things are not going right in their backyard. Singapore-bashing is prevalent in election years in Malaysia, and Dr M talked about skinning a cat (and Singapore). Do you still remember the half-blind Indonesian president Wahid calling us the little red dot and the way the Thai junta govt is treating Singapore now after Thaksin's visit recently.
Thaksin was in Bali and met an Indonesian minister and Thailand made no noise. Admittedly, the DPM Jayakumar maybe shouldn't have hosted Thaksin, but the difference in reactions to Indonesia and Singapore cannot be more polarized and unfair.
That's why we need to give our diplomats a big stick, we need SAF to be a strong deterrent, and we must be able to move in and win swiftly, because Singapore cannot afford a long war. That's why Singaporeans serve NS, and that's the value of citizenship.
It is not the few hundred dollars less we pay at university every year that makes citizenship valuable!
I feel ashamed to even start reading it. Excuse me, is that what the Singaporean citizenship is all about?
Believe it or not, my idea of citizenship stems from a lousy American movie called Starship Troopers. One can only become a citizen by signing up to protect Earth from alien bugs. Those who don't are known as civilians.
In Singapore, it is almost the same scenario. All males serve 2 years of national service either with the armed forces, the police, or the civil defence force. I think national service is really the fabric that binds all Singaporeans together, when we pledged to defend this 660 sq km with our lives. Two years of sweat and blood, and sometimes the loss of lives due to accidents, mean something.
It is really not about a question of monetary benefits of being a citizen. I think the ST really got it all wrong.
When this famous ex-Singaporean pianist (whatever his name) was fined a few thousands dollars for evading NS, there was outcry over the peanuts fine, but deeper down, I believe Singaporeans are protesting because this chap has failed to fulfill his duties as a citizen then. He has to cheek to come back to Singapore to visit his old parents he deserted all this time, when thousands others before and after him trained hard everyday he was pursuing his dreams in UK.
"Do I not have a dream to pursue, but have to put it on hold first to protect his parents?"
I know I am not very balanced writing this entry, not the way GP has taught me. But NS is important for the sovereignty of Singapore. It is a matter of survival and I am not about to take a buffered approach.
Not when leaders of our neighbours use Singapore as a dartboard when things are not going right in their backyard. Singapore-bashing is prevalent in election years in Malaysia, and Dr M talked about skinning a cat (and Singapore). Do you still remember the half-blind Indonesian president Wahid calling us the little red dot and the way the Thai junta govt is treating Singapore now after Thaksin's visit recently.
Thaksin was in Bali and met an Indonesian minister and Thailand made no noise. Admittedly, the DPM Jayakumar maybe shouldn't have hosted Thaksin, but the difference in reactions to Indonesia and Singapore cannot be more polarized and unfair.
That's why we need to give our diplomats a big stick, we need SAF to be a strong deterrent, and we must be able to move in and win swiftly, because Singapore cannot afford a long war. That's why Singaporeans serve NS, and that's the value of citizenship.
It is not the few hundred dollars less we pay at university every year that makes citizenship valuable!
Friday, January 19, 2007
L.I.F.E.
I am still shell-shocked by the loss of my friend.
To all, please value your life and think about the pain you would give to the people who love you if you go so abruptly. Be a responsible son, daughter and friend. Everything can be sorted out.
Talk to someone you can trust, or just anyone. Talk to ME. I got a strong mind to help u reason out whatever vulnerabilities you have, I promise.
To all, please value your life and think about the pain you would give to the people who love you if you go so abruptly. Be a responsible son, daughter and friend. Everything can be sorted out.
Talk to someone you can trust, or just anyone. Talk to ME. I got a strong mind to help u reason out whatever vulnerabilities you have, I promise.
Wednesday, January 17, 2007
To Aaron, I miss you and Sorry
I can't even begin to write this, but I will finish in memory of one true friend - Aaron Kok Jun Fa.
I am really sorry that I am such a lousy friend, I hate myself, pls forgive me.
Aaron, you were such a bright kid in class, but you never had airs. The humble, easy-going, even reserved you was bullied by me, targeted you in a silly childish game. You knew I was just playful.
It was years later when I thought of you, not only to meet up, but also to seek accommodation in Manchester. I feel despicable, I am sorry Aaron. I am sorry that I caused you so much troubles, brought so many strangers, and you had to cook us dinner and breakfast. I am thankful that after so many year, you still treated me like a brother and never winked to receive and send us off. I am sorry that all I could give you was a postcard of gratitude after so much. I am sorry we promised to meet back in Singapore but we haven't until now. I suck. Why am I such a selfish bastard.
I am such a lousy friend. All the multiply invites you sent me, I never accepted. All the while you were on MSN, I did not say hi. All these time you were missing, I don't even know. Just how bad am I as a friend?
I know nothing, NOTHING until Shihao called me today. I feel ashamed of myself really. It is hurting me so much that I can only talk about you in the past, in a past when I did not treasure you, my friend. Pls TAKE CARE wherever you may be now.
I am really sorry that I am such a lousy friend, I hate myself, pls forgive me.
Aaron, you were such a bright kid in class, but you never had airs. The humble, easy-going, even reserved you was bullied by me, targeted you in a silly childish game. You knew I was just playful.
It was years later when I thought of you, not only to meet up, but also to seek accommodation in Manchester. I feel despicable, I am sorry Aaron. I am sorry that I caused you so much troubles, brought so many strangers, and you had to cook us dinner and breakfast. I am thankful that after so many year, you still treated me like a brother and never winked to receive and send us off. I am sorry that all I could give you was a postcard of gratitude after so much. I am sorry we promised to meet back in Singapore but we haven't until now. I suck. Why am I such a selfish bastard.
I am such a lousy friend. All the multiply invites you sent me, I never accepted. All the while you were on MSN, I did not say hi. All these time you were missing, I don't even know. Just how bad am I as a friend?
I know nothing, NOTHING until Shihao called me today. I feel ashamed of myself really. It is hurting me so much that I can only talk about you in the past, in a past when I did not treasure you, my friend. Pls TAKE CARE wherever you may be now.
Saturday, January 13, 2007
About Life, Material and Singapore
Our FYP group had a drink yst night at Villa Bali. It was a different setting to meet, especially with Prof Lee and unusual topics emerged, the most fiery one about LIFE.
Married with to an Austrian, schooled in England, Prof Lee is almost un-Singaporean in her approach to life. In starking contrast to Singaporeans' pursuit of material comfort, she professed a life revolving about personal satisfaction, care for family, time for social interactions, quality of time, and perhaps in a nutshell - FREEDOM.
So entrenched she is in her beliefs, she is ready to give up her social status, her luxuries, her job in exchange for a fulfilling family life, to care about people around as long as she has any job (McDonald's, road sweeper, whichever) that pays enough for her survival needs.
Idealistic.
Our discussion was open, honest and bitterly at odds.
I wasn't born with a silver spoon, not even middle-class comfort. Life is tough, as I used to watch my parents toiled nights away serving up hawker fares. Income was decent, but hardly affluent. There were things I wanted but never asked for, because I know it wouldn't help our cause, except maybe fulfill a little self-gratification with a playstation or gameboy. I didn't own one.
I learn to find my own ways around. $200 a month at Chinese High was paid for by a MOE award, my tertiary education is now sponsored by SAF, and the French exchange I went last year was fully funded by DUO and my study award. I haven't taken a cent from my parents since enlistment.
Going back to a bigger picture, all the good things that I enjoyed are associated with a dollar value, as much as one dislikes such connotations. The meritocratic Singaporean society is at the same time highly material-driven. The ability to succeed bears a high correlation with the amount of resources one has, very unfortunately.
Prof Lee asked, "Do you mind working as road sweeper, work 8 - 5 and enjoy quality time with your family?"
Of course I mind.
I have a bigger purpose in life. And how much quality time can a road sweeper enjoy with his family, if he has to worry about his utilities bill next month, going thru his accounts to squeeze extra money for his kids' tuitions, swimming classes and other curricular activities like piano and violin, if I even dare say. It's about PROVIDING for the family.
Mind you, I am not talking about the 5C's. This is about giving your loved ones the freedom to pursue and develop their interests without reservations and monetary concerns. Do I wish I know how to play the piano? Yes, I do. But I have no qualms because I know a piano meant half a year's expenses, plus taking up valuable space in my already cramped HDB apartment == $.
I hate to be this materialistic actually. But the Singaporean society has schooled us to be so. Moulding our people in another way other than who we are now may mean that we may possibly still be languishing in economic backwaters with our developing neighbours. Linking the value of life to money is probably the only way Singaporeans know how to live, and it is SAD.
I am in total agreement with Prof Lee regarding the importance of quality personal time, and living the value of life in exploring your interests. But all these to be achieved with a disregard to pragmatic responsibilities and circumstances - to take a leave when workload are sky high, to be at home for dinner in place of an important meeting...
In a certain way, I suspect Prof Lee never had it tough all life. These talks of freedom are made atop from her ivory towers of a doctorate in hand, a landed property home, a foreign hubby, a reasonable passbook and the ability to pay a car in full, among others. Meanwhile, try asking any McDonald auntie or roadsweeper uncle if they want to remain that way until the day their coffins are nailed.
I do agree with her.
Life is not about materialism. We should live our life with passion, doing the things we like, enjoying it to the fullest and without regrets. In fact she is right, the chase for material wealth and the ability to lead a meaningful life will contradict at some point in time.
But you see, everything in this society, maybe lesser so in welfare societies, is marked with a price tag. We all have to attain that level of living before we can start all the talks about dreams and passion.
The problem of materialism in Singapore is social-bound, is cultural-bound, and it is definitely not because Singaporean guys are childish. This is one point I must refute when Prof Lee commented on why her local relationships did not work out. True, many don't enjoy the finer points in life - the classicals, the operas, the dives, the skis, even the picnics, the suntans, the strolls in the parks. But honestly, what about the Singaporean ladies?
It is a Singaporean dilemma in essence.
The discussion is thought-provoking, meaningful, and makes me sit back and think about what life I want. I haven't changed one bit though, because I appreciate the things Prof Lee appreciate in life as well, though the approaches are different. Let's leave it that way with mutual respect for each other's beliefs and agree to disagree.
Married with to an Austrian, schooled in England, Prof Lee is almost un-Singaporean in her approach to life. In starking contrast to Singaporeans' pursuit of material comfort, she professed a life revolving about personal satisfaction, care for family, time for social interactions, quality of time, and perhaps in a nutshell - FREEDOM.
So entrenched she is in her beliefs, she is ready to give up her social status, her luxuries, her job in exchange for a fulfilling family life, to care about people around as long as she has any job (McDonald's, road sweeper, whichever) that pays enough for her survival needs.
Idealistic.
Our discussion was open, honest and bitterly at odds.
I wasn't born with a silver spoon, not even middle-class comfort. Life is tough, as I used to watch my parents toiled nights away serving up hawker fares. Income was decent, but hardly affluent. There were things I wanted but never asked for, because I know it wouldn't help our cause, except maybe fulfill a little self-gratification with a playstation or gameboy. I didn't own one.
I learn to find my own ways around. $200 a month at Chinese High was paid for by a MOE award, my tertiary education is now sponsored by SAF, and the French exchange I went last year was fully funded by DUO and my study award. I haven't taken a cent from my parents since enlistment.
Going back to a bigger picture, all the good things that I enjoyed are associated with a dollar value, as much as one dislikes such connotations. The meritocratic Singaporean society is at the same time highly material-driven. The ability to succeed bears a high correlation with the amount of resources one has, very unfortunately.
Prof Lee asked, "Do you mind working as road sweeper, work 8 - 5 and enjoy quality time with your family?"
Of course I mind.
I have a bigger purpose in life. And how much quality time can a road sweeper enjoy with his family, if he has to worry about his utilities bill next month, going thru his accounts to squeeze extra money for his kids' tuitions, swimming classes and other curricular activities like piano and violin, if I even dare say. It's about PROVIDING for the family.
Mind you, I am not talking about the 5C's. This is about giving your loved ones the freedom to pursue and develop their interests without reservations and monetary concerns. Do I wish I know how to play the piano? Yes, I do. But I have no qualms because I know a piano meant half a year's expenses, plus taking up valuable space in my already cramped HDB apartment == $.
I hate to be this materialistic actually. But the Singaporean society has schooled us to be so. Moulding our people in another way other than who we are now may mean that we may possibly still be languishing in economic backwaters with our developing neighbours. Linking the value of life to money is probably the only way Singaporeans know how to live, and it is SAD.
I am in total agreement with Prof Lee regarding the importance of quality personal time, and living the value of life in exploring your interests. But all these to be achieved with a disregard to pragmatic responsibilities and circumstances - to take a leave when workload are sky high, to be at home for dinner in place of an important meeting...
In a certain way, I suspect Prof Lee never had it tough all life. These talks of freedom are made atop from her ivory towers of a doctorate in hand, a landed property home, a foreign hubby, a reasonable passbook and the ability to pay a car in full, among others. Meanwhile, try asking any McDonald auntie or roadsweeper uncle if they want to remain that way until the day their coffins are nailed.
I do agree with her.
Life is not about materialism. We should live our life with passion, doing the things we like, enjoying it to the fullest and without regrets. In fact she is right, the chase for material wealth and the ability to lead a meaningful life will contradict at some point in time.
But you see, everything in this society, maybe lesser so in welfare societies, is marked with a price tag. We all have to attain that level of living before we can start all the talks about dreams and passion.
The problem of materialism in Singapore is social-bound, is cultural-bound, and it is definitely not because Singaporean guys are childish. This is one point I must refute when Prof Lee commented on why her local relationships did not work out. True, many don't enjoy the finer points in life - the classicals, the operas, the dives, the skis, even the picnics, the suntans, the strolls in the parks. But honestly, what about the Singaporean ladies?
It is a Singaporean dilemma in essence.
The discussion is thought-provoking, meaningful, and makes me sit back and think about what life I want. I haven't changed one bit though, because I appreciate the things Prof Lee appreciate in life as well, though the approaches are different. Let's leave it that way with mutual respect for each other's beliefs and agree to disagree.
Monday, January 08, 2007
Last Semester!!
Yeah I am back! Last semester, so fast! Feeling excited and raring to go again! (I'm so sure I will be cursing come April when exams come around)
Not allocated the GEs I placed on the waitlist, even though there are still plenty of vacancies for German I and Basic Media Writing. I guessed I will just stick to the easier LG80 this sem, after all should be a good revision to strengthen my German basics.
Had a small episode at the undergrad office when I was submitting my appeal form to overload GE. The lady claimed I have to submit the "subjects registered" in STARS, while I printed out my timetable from STARS planner. On the form, it asked for confirmed timetable. Anyway I refused to budge because iHub and CITS are damn crowded and it will take another 15 mins to find a terminal, send print job, release and go back to re-submit. She took it after lotsa grouses, but I don't really care.
Anyway, this appeal for overload of GEs is a complete waste of time and resources. More paperwork for the students and staff alike, what for? By all means give those who haven't finished their GE requirements the priority when balloting, but for god's sake just let people like me who got nothing better to do to add/drop GEs with remaining vacancies after all the others got theirs on waitlist.
Sometimes I wonder why. NTU - Global University of Excellence, third class administration who looks for trouble themselves.
Not allocated the GEs I placed on the waitlist, even though there are still plenty of vacancies for German I and Basic Media Writing. I guessed I will just stick to the easier LG80 this sem, after all should be a good revision to strengthen my German basics.
Had a small episode at the undergrad office when I was submitting my appeal form to overload GE. The lady claimed I have to submit the "subjects registered" in STARS, while I printed out my timetable from STARS planner. On the form, it asked for confirmed timetable. Anyway I refused to budge because iHub and CITS are damn crowded and it will take another 15 mins to find a terminal, send print job, release and go back to re-submit. She took it after lotsa grouses, but I don't really care.
Anyway, this appeal for overload of GEs is a complete waste of time and resources. More paperwork for the students and staff alike, what for? By all means give those who haven't finished their GE requirements the priority when balloting, but for god's sake just let people like me who got nothing better to do to add/drop GEs with remaining vacancies after all the others got theirs on waitlist.
Sometimes I wonder why. NTU - Global University of Excellence, third class administration who looks for trouble themselves.
Sunday, January 07, 2007
My previous life...
You could have been a famous Political FigureWhether you were ruling the Roman Empire or shaking up the 18th century, you're sure to be making waves in any era you're in. Driven and focused, you want to make a difference and help people. If it gets you into the history books, even better!
Ambitious and motivated, you've got your eye on the prize and aren't afraid to go after what you want. You'd love to shake things up and make waves in the world. A little fame thrown in there wouldn't hurt either. So, keep chasing your goals. You're sure to go far in this life — and the next ones!
Who Were You in a Past Life?
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Saturday, January 06, 2007
Tu as un petit jardin pour moi?
Je t'ai jamais considerée,
Jamais une fleur pour toi.
Comme un aveugle en te passant,
C'est vachement fou c'est moi.
Si chaque fois tu les considères,
Peu à peu, un jardin se révèle.
J'ai simplement besoin de petit espace,
Pour une fois on s'embrassera.
C'est un poème à toi j'ecris,
A toi je sincèrement donne.
Une langue si romantique je venais d'apprendre,
L'amour si pur caché maintenant.
J'ai aucune idée comment te dire,
J'espère que la même chose on se sent.
Tout ce que je demande de toi c'est ça,
Un petit jardin pour moi.
Jamais une fleur pour toi.
Comme un aveugle en te passant,
C'est vachement fou c'est moi.
Si chaque fois tu les considères,
Peu à peu, un jardin se révèle.
J'ai simplement besoin de petit espace,
Pour une fois on s'embrassera.
C'est un poème à toi j'ecris,
A toi je sincèrement donne.
Une langue si romantique je venais d'apprendre,
L'amour si pur caché maintenant.
J'ai aucune idée comment te dire,
J'espère que la même chose on se sent.
Tout ce que je demande de toi c'est ça,
Un petit jardin pour moi.
Act cute
At John's place for new yr celebration when Andrew and I decided to tie up our hair. Looks pretty cute... Lol
Thursday, January 04, 2007
Crap
I am looking, I think.
Been talking a lot of crap with Jasman, my fyp mate, about all these girls and relationships issues. Not that they are anything serious, but two single males like us tend to allow our conversations online to veer innocuously to such topics. Talked to Zhihao and Jinhui over our last jc class gathering too, and they all can't seem to agree with me.
Haha, tell me if I'm weird.
I have been professing my reluctance to woo girls to people around me. Reason being - I hate to allow a relationship to commence on the wrong footing that I am the one who wants her and thus rendering myself vulnerable. Or maybe itz pride, I may not be able to take a rejection well. Lol.
Can't a couple come together naturally after developing a mutual affinity? Why all these crap about courtship? Haha my guy frenz think either I am nuts or I am too idealistic. They claim the privilege of going after girls means one has the choice of partners, while girls usually only are able to give hints subtly and may not end up with the guy they like. Oh well...
***
I am actually more open to knowing people now. Just the other day, a girl who went on instep to France offered to intro her lab mate to me. I would have ran away in the past, I swear. But somehow this time, I am actually looking forward to it. Haha am I despo?
Maybe I regret going to a boys' school, not knowing enough girls in nj and hall. My circle of girls seems pretty limited. The number of girls I can consider friends is less than the number of fingers I have. Nobody believes me, but I am shy. Hehe.
***
Since the last heartbreak, I kept myself busy enough and my heart closed enough to ward off puppy love and kind. I am actually quite tired of going into relationships that are uncertain. Itz that stupid time of the life when you want to experiment but ever so want to have a feeling of certainty. Otherwise I call it a waste of time, money and energy.
I hate the feeling of resentment at the end of a relationship, as if I haven't done enough or that all I've done are not appreciated. I hate the end so much that smtimes I don't wanna start.
I'm sorry to her because I was not ready then and I couldn't explain it. I just had to let things die out. Someone asked me if I regretted it, maybe, maybe not. The time just wasn't right.
***
Okie actually this is pretty disjointed, just some points from my conversations with a few frenz over the past weeks. Haha, thanks for reading this crap. Wish me luck to find Ms Right.
Been talking a lot of crap with Jasman, my fyp mate, about all these girls and relationships issues. Not that they are anything serious, but two single males like us tend to allow our conversations online to veer innocuously to such topics. Talked to Zhihao and Jinhui over our last jc class gathering too, and they all can't seem to agree with me.
Haha, tell me if I'm weird.
I have been professing my reluctance to woo girls to people around me. Reason being - I hate to allow a relationship to commence on the wrong footing that I am the one who wants her and thus rendering myself vulnerable. Or maybe itz pride, I may not be able to take a rejection well. Lol.
Can't a couple come together naturally after developing a mutual affinity? Why all these crap about courtship? Haha my guy frenz think either I am nuts or I am too idealistic. They claim the privilege of going after girls means one has the choice of partners, while girls usually only are able to give hints subtly and may not end up with the guy they like. Oh well...
***
I am actually more open to knowing people now. Just the other day, a girl who went on instep to France offered to intro her lab mate to me. I would have ran away in the past, I swear. But somehow this time, I am actually looking forward to it. Haha am I despo?
Maybe I regret going to a boys' school, not knowing enough girls in nj and hall. My circle of girls seems pretty limited. The number of girls I can consider friends is less than the number of fingers I have. Nobody believes me, but I am shy. Hehe.
***
Since the last heartbreak, I kept myself busy enough and my heart closed enough to ward off puppy love and kind. I am actually quite tired of going into relationships that are uncertain. Itz that stupid time of the life when you want to experiment but ever so want to have a feeling of certainty. Otherwise I call it a waste of time, money and energy.
I hate the feeling of resentment at the end of a relationship, as if I haven't done enough or that all I've done are not appreciated. I hate the end so much that smtimes I don't wanna start.
I'm sorry to her because I was not ready then and I couldn't explain it. I just had to let things die out. Someone asked me if I regretted it, maybe, maybe not. The time just wasn't right.
***
Okie actually this is pretty disjointed, just some points from my conversations with a few frenz over the past weeks. Haha, thanks for reading this crap. Wish me luck to find Ms Right.
Tuesday, January 02, 2007
Another New Year Resolutions
I wish for
Bonne année à tous!
- First class honours in EEE
- Someone special
- A great grad trip to Taiwan or Korea
- Perform well for ALOC
- Healthy bank balance come 2008
- Pink of health for my family and loved ones
- STRIKE TOTO
Bonne année à tous!
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